I quite like the idea of living through my art and music while also reflecting various times in which I've been a party to. Lots of I's in this entry, might as well admit my own self-interest and move along with this. Anyway, I've realized some things recently which unfortunately i cannot articulate any further than talking myself into a circle continually to no avail. So instead I will simply say that I am attempting to forge a connection to that thing always eludes me, which I think is my spirit if such a thing even exists at this point...